maybe it's just emotions taking me over...

Darn. It's 5am in the morning. Two days after the final showdown. I haven't slept well since Thursday. Was up at 2am the morning of the interview. Was up at 6am yesterday. Up at 5am today. I can't sleep. Everytime, every single second of my life, now, I think about the interview. Was wondering if anyone feels the same? Answers fly in my head- THE answers I thought would've been better. Or the stupid things I shouldn't have said. I wish I could say, 'Oh well, what done is done and there is no crying over spilt milk.' But I can't. There's this dark tunnel, this gaping hole ready to open up at the very thought of rejection next Thursday. Weirdly enough, I cannot see light. Is this a sign? Or perhaps I'm jinxing the bad to make way for the good? I don't know. I'm hoping, praying for the best and not so prepared for the worst. I can't deal with emotions well.

p/s: For those who have been told that my interview experience is on my blog, it's the next post down.