Not quite there yet

And so D-day arrived... and it passed without me knowing my fate/future career options/exact entry or dropout from med school. It's not that the results didn't come out. Hell they did. It was around mid day friends started sending frenzy text messages, 'Results out!', 'Did you get in?'... and so of course I started getting ultra nervous. And so when Rory went to check his results using Karyn's computer, I decided, 'Well, what done is done. It's already there. Just go and do it.'

And so I checked my application on nDeva. Before this the 'Application status' was well just 'Applicant', but it should have changed to either 'Approved' or 'Declined'. When I had a look at mine, it was 'Waiting listed.' I didn't know to be happy/relieved/upset or whatever. A part of me was glad that it wasn't a direct no. Then a part of me had the scary realisation that I'm on the freakin' borderline. My situation is rather touch and go now. After all the build up of emotions/shaking with excitement/pumping heart/glowing face, I really hope/wish/would die for a place in med school. And this is how it works ok, at least I think so. Say if anyone, it's beyond my imagination, decides to decline their own admission due to say, other better offers/unforseen circumstances/an act of benovelence (for me!! thanks!), then the waiting list people will be considered. Thing is, I don't know how many people are on the waiting list, how long must I wait. So my solution is: prepare for biomed, keep your options open, enjoy life, pray hard dear, I need some divine intervention now, pester the enrolment ppl pver at med school for info, get on with life.

As you probably noticed, I used a lot of abstract thoughts and slashes to separate my options, basically they all reflect my emotions and thoughts right now. I always had options in life, things that I needed to make a sound decision, never was my life a one-thing only, always needed to weigh out the possiblities..sometimes it's a good thing. But in my case now, there is only one thing that I want. The race/battle is far from over. Let me be strong. And let my results be what I want.

p/s: The biggest congratulations to my fellow biomed mates:

-Rory (you go man! This was so written in your stars!)
-Henry (and you complained about not getting in??!!)
-Febe (you so deserve it!!!Wee!! Colin, here she comes! Wait for me too!)
-Vivien Yong
-Joanna (Girl, stop being so modest! Haha!)

My Healthy rivals:
-Shantu (what did we say?)

And well, for others, who either missed it or didn't get back to me, guys, we should be proud we made it this far! Three (more!) loud cheers to all of us who made this year, well, our year. It was a great year!! Have a great holiday and hope to see you guys soon!