I feel so humiliated..stupid even

Have you ever experienced the feeling that you did something so remarkably stupid that you just wanted to cover your face and vanish into thin air? Most of the time I'm this thick skinned lass whose vocabulary does not include the words 'shy', 'embarassed' or even 'pride'. My philosophy was what the hell, life is too short to hold back, so just go out there to do it. And very often I act without thinking and blurt out things I don't mean.

But what happened today was far from me being mean.. or saying things without thinking.

When I started work last week, I saw Hugh. Hugh is this guy who worked as security with me on my first day at S&C. He works only during the holidays as he goes to Uni down in Dunedin. So you could imagine I was pretty surprised when I saw him at work last week. Nothing out of the ordinary really I thought, he might have finished his degree, or maybe I heard wrongly, he might have been studying in Auckland. Anyways, I went up to Level 2 today to search for this perfume with straw sticks and saw Hugh. So instinct told me to go say 'Hi.' So there I was, marching right up to him but say Hi I did not. I walked over, smiled and said, 'So you're still working?' He looked at me as if I've gone mad, and said, 'Huh?' I repeated my question. He said, 'Huh?' with a big question mark on his face. This was when I started feeling uneasy. Then he uttered, 'You must mean my brother, Hugh.' Now question marks started richocheting in my head. What the heck was he going on about? Looking at this 'Hugh', it struck me. Oh yes, he does seem younger, bit smaller as a matter of fact. So Hugh's younger brother worked there as well? I said, ' Wait a minute...' He continued, 'Yes, I've got an identical twin brother who's one inch taller than me and he's down south.' It was like a comedy scene from the movies. After all, how often do you come across the not-known twin and mistakenly think he's the twin you know? I was so embarassed. The poor guy must have thought I was a maniac...haha but it's all sweet. He assured me that it happens very often and that he's Oliver, not Hugh.

So that's all in a day's of work. We had a better day today. Selling almost one and a half grand of luggage and shoes. Had lunch with Amanda who's doing her hospital rounds and who was so sweet when she found out I didn't get into med school and insisted that we have a long discussion. Thanks Amanda for being so caring. And thanks to Andrew who shared his Maltesers with me and despite wrecking my no-chocolate diet, I still think it's really sweet. And a big warm welcome to my new co-worker Tarsha!! Yeah, another talking buddy! The thing I love about her is that she can laugh at herself and doesn't take things too seriously.

Okay dokey. That was my weekend. Should've gone see the fireworks at the Domain on Saturday..heard it was real grand. I'm looking forward to a 'free-er' week with only one lab. Going to Philson Library to check out some physio books tomorrow and meeting up with Yosi at one for lunch.

I would just like to spend the last few minutes here expressing my farewell to a very special friend who's going to further her studies abroad...leaving in exactly four and a half hours going for about two and a half years. Hey my friend, you take care and drink heaps of water. Don't forget what I told you... go the extra mile as what Pn Boey would say and have faith in God as what you always believe in. When things seem hard, just remember me with my smiling face..hehe..but remember we're oh so proud of you. Prove those who ever doubted you wrong. Can't wait till you come home again..and good bye for now!!! Will think of you always!!!!!